I have so many emotions running through me these days it's hard to put into words.
I've never lost someone close to me, it's weird.
All of my free time consists of a constant replay of our memories together.
I don't understand.

I'm trying to comprehend all of these emotions, I figured writing them out would help.
But it's not helping.
Everyone keeps saying it'll get easier as time passes, but it hasn't.
I don't understand.

Nothing makes sense. How am I supposed to celebrate my birthday, when such a precious life has ended?

Really trying to understand, but I don't.